About the Campaign
Thanks to everyone who’s donated. I’m leaving the donate button on as there are things like CT scans (£1200) and post op chemo to cover and a buffer for that and anything unexpected would be nice, but frankly I am amazed to have reached this target and even amazed that around 1000 of you have donated.
Great to see old friends haven’t forgotten me, surprised by some of the people and amounts donated but perhaps most of all, astonished by the amount of people who have donated who don’t even know me, especially as I haven’t got anything on them to blackmail with…
Muchas gracias to you all xxx
Special thanks to Tim Graham at Creative Juice Web Design for your website assistance.
Reluctant though I am to do this, due to the NHS not agreeing to fund the potentially life saving operation I mentioned in my facebook post on the 17th February 2017, I’ve a couple of weeks or so to find £60-70,000.
If I have to wait any longer then due to me stopping chemo so my immune system can build back up for the op, there’s a very real risk of the hitherto stable tumours growing, which would be disastrous.
The operation is to remove half my pancreas, spleen, gall-bladder and part of my liver. Although the subsequent ‘clean up chemo’ should be funded by the NHS there are subsequent consultations, scans etc. that probably won’t be.
As many of you know, up until a few weeks ago I had come to terms with this illness being terminal. The average survival rate with my particular illness on the treatment I’ve been having is only 5-8 months: I was diagnosed February 2016.
To be told that the way I had reacted to the chemo over the last year was unique enough for the surgeon to operate and that my 5-year survival chance would go from 100/1 to 5/1, along with there being a real possibility of it not coming back is something I am still trying to get my head around. I don’t want to use the word ‘miracle’ but…
Those who know me well will understand that I’m far more comfortable offering help than asking for it but as a close friend rather astutely observed, “You’ll be even more f**king uncomfortable with 6 feet of soil on top of you…” Fair point.
So why have I called this “ThankUCancer”?
Before I knew there was this survival lifeline I often found myself saying, “Notwithstanding the terminal outcome, in some ways this is the best thing that’s ever happened to me,” such were the lessons and perspective it gave.
I figured the more positive my state of mind, the better my chance of beating the prognosis. Rather than being angry at having cancer, rather than going fuck you, rather than being negative, I decided to mentally make friends with those little tumours, let them know I’d learned and would carrying on learning the lessons they’d brought to my attention and that I didn’t need them any more, so on that basis, would they very kindly mind doing one?
Hippy bollocks? If you’d asked me before all this then I would have probably sniggered and said yes but I’m seeing the world through an increasingly different prism after this past year.
Spiritual stuff to one side, even psychologically a positive mindset is the ideal – if stress caused by your mindset can massively contribute to cancer then logic surely dictates that a positive mindset can contribute to physical well-being too? Regardless of its validity, that’s been my attitude from day one. What I do know is they haven’t grown since June (they shrank by 40% March-June) and what’s happening now is borderline miraculous.
So, I am at a stage where those cancer cells now need some assistance with their eviction (hopefully permanent), courtesy of the surgeon’s scalpel and a little help from my friends.
Thanks to everyone who has supported me hitherto in all sorts of ways and thanks in advance to any of you who can help me now.
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